Honesty is the Best Policy

Okay, I know it sounds incredibly cliche, but it's true. A huge part of EDs seems to be keeping everything secret and that really doesn't do anything to help. In fact, it usually just makes things worse. I know for me, I just let all my thoughts bubble and simmer and build inside my brain until I can't take it anymore. Which, of course, is very unhealthy. You teach yourself that it's not okay to tell others how you feel, to "vent," to need other people that maybe don't need you in the same way. Which is a bad way to be thinking. I've started to realize (although I sometimes don't believe it myself) that other people like to feel needed. They like to feel like you trust them. And when you're honest with them although it may not seem like it'll make a difference in their life, it does. I know it's one thing to talk about how great honesty is and another thing to act on the knowledge, but part of getting over an ED is coming to terms with not keeping everything to yourself. Yes, I went to my counselor today and I talked honestly and openly for the first time. Yes, it was hard, but it felt amazing to get all the crap (or at least a lot of it) out of my head, even if only temporarily.